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Of Fire and Hammers*
As I mentioned in the first post of my Gilmore Girls series, I was raised Seventh Day Adventist. For those of you who aren’t familiar with this Christian sect, you can get the basics on what they...
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The Great White Dope
Note: I’ve chosen not to spell out the name of the Republican presidential candidate for several reasons, not the least of which is my illogical belief that to spell it out is akin to summoning...
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Faces of Depression, Day 1
For a while I’ve been thinking about chronicling how I look as it relates to depression. I think many people expect a depressed person to look or behave a certain way all the time, and that’s really...
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Faces of Depression, Day 2
Took this photo around 3:30 pm. On a scale of 1 to 10, today’s depression level is 4. I had a few interactions that left me feeling wrong, and time at Pop’s house left me feeling sad and a little...
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Faces of Depression, Day 3
Took this photo around 1 pm. I had showered and dressed but hadn’t put on makeup yet. Today is a 3 out of 10. I’m stressed and frustrated by my financial situation, and my living situation is also...
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Faces of Depression, Day 4
Took today’s photo at 10:45 a.m. Tired, but last night ended on a good note after an honest conversation with my housemate about some issues. I expressed myself clearly and didn’t go into attack mode...
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Faces of Depression, Day 5
Took this photo at 1:45 p.m. I’m busy with work projects and personal admin-type tasks (organizing my office/sewing area, doing laundry, etc.), so that means I’m not looping on the issues that make me...
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Faces of Depression, Day 6
After yesterday’s post, I noticed something that disturbed me, so today we’re going to do an unscientific experiment. Here’s the selfie I took today around 12:45 p.m. Now here’s the selfie I took seven...
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Faces of Depression, Day 7
Took today’s selfie a little before 1 p.m. Post-shower and post-hairstyling, but pre-makeup. This morning I kept busy with household tasks, like changing the duvet cover, finding out the autumn duvet...
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Faces of Depression – Day 8
Today started out not so great – I was looping on depressing thoughts and anxiety was high. But by the time I took this photo in the early afternoon, I had done some meditating to help me through the...
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Faces of Depression, Day 9
Bad anxiety this morning, which didn’t quite go away even with a meditation session. And while the focus with this series is depression, the two are closely linked for me. Today I’m faking it as best I...
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Faces of Depression, Day 10
Today was rough. Woke up at 6 and cried from all the anxiety running through my head – my anxiety is at its worst in the morning – and fell asleep again after 7 and didn’t wake up again until after 9....
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Faces of Depression, Day 11
Today marks the seven year anniversary of Momcat’s death. Funny, I expected to be much more of an emotional wreck, but yesterday was way more difficult. Today I woke up and didn’t feel miserable, just...
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Faces of Depression, Day 12
Woke up at 4:30 am and couldn’t fall back asleep, so I read a book until I got sleepy. With that auspicious start to the day, I thought it might end up not being all that great. But it turned out to be...
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Faces of Depression, Day 13
Took this photo around 3 p.m. Woke up feeling much more positive about everything, and the annoyances that popped up over the course of the day disappeared quickly. I felt restless and distracted most...
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Faces of Depression, Day 14
Busy day with client work, a subject interview for an article, and a new contract (yay!). Took this photo a few minutes ago using the crappy front facing camera on my tablet, so it’s blurry and dim....
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Faces of Depression, Day 15
Long day but a good one. Spent several hours at the AAA service center getting the car checked out, but had letter writing, journaling and a little urban exploration to keep me entertained. Then went...
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Faces of Depression, Day 16
We’re now a little past the halfway point for the month and I’ve learned a lot over the past couple weeks. It doesn’t matter too much how I look – or how anyone looks, for that matter – when depression...
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Faces of Depression, Day 17
I had a feeling that several 7-plus days in a row meant a crash was coming, and sure enough, today was pretty craptacular. Client issues, my living situation and financial stressors compounded to make...
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Faces of Depression, Day 18
This is what it looks like when you get up late because you don’t want to deal with anyone, but you shower, put on makeup and do your hair because you are supposed to go to an event tonight that you’ve...
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Faces of Depression, Day 19
Woke up on the late side this morning, but got to work on a couple tasks that distracted me from my anxiety and then did some journaling that gave me much needed clarity about some of my bigger issues...
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Faces of Depression, Day 20
Today has been better. Had work projects to keep my mind occupied and some quiet time on the back porch, including cat cuddles, eased the stress and anxiety on the fringes of my brain. Today is a 5 out...
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Faces of Depression, Day 21
Today was a little better. Even though I’m still stressed about money matters, I know they will turn around soon, and my depression doesn’t overwhelm me – it’s just buzzing in the background. I felt...
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Faces of Depression, Day 22
The word for today was serendipity. Much needed funds arrived, I got a letter from a pen pal I hadn’t heard from in a while, and on the way into DC I met a young woman visiting from Paris, which meant...
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Faces of Depression, Day 23
Lazy day. Stayed up late watching a fantastic, inspiring documentary about Louise Hay, author of You Can Heal Your Life, and got up early because the cats were out of dry food and acting like they were...
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Faces of Depression, Day 24
Today was a long day of dealing with lines and forms and paperwork. Spent over an hour at the DMV getting my driver’s license, then spent another 30 minutes or so getting auto insurance. It wasn’t...
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Faces of Depression, Day 25
Another long day dealing with the DMV, including an unexpected trip to another DMV office because the first one was having computer issues and couldn’t access the information necessary to register my...
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Faces of Depression, Day 26
Since the last 2 days were spent at the DMV, today was a catch-up day: client work, grocery shopping, laundry. In the morning, I had some nasty anxiety pop up related to finances (yet again), so I...
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Faces of Depression, Day 27
Another long, busy day. Some moments of anxiety and the corresponding moments of depression, but the busyness of the day meant I didn’t dwell on those moments for too long. Made some chili in the Crock...
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Faces of Depression, Day 28
After several high stress days in a row, I decided to take it easy today, which made for a good day. Went to Pops’ house and had a nice lunch and long visit with him and his girlfriend, then came back...
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Faces of Depression, Day 29
Was so busy enjoying my day, I nearly forgot to post. Leisurely morning and early afternoon, then I decided I needed to get out into nature while the weather was nice and it was still light out. I went...
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Faces of Depression, Day 30
A decent day with some irritability over trivial matters. Finished a sewing project I’d been putting off for a couple months, which was a good feeling. That said, there are some errors in the finished...
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Faces of Depression, Day 31 – Final Thoughts
What a month it’s been. When I started this online chronicle of my depression, my goal was to show people that depression can sometimes look very different than the...
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Weird Things Seen on the Street, #47
It’s been a long time since I last posted a weird thing seen on the street. That doesn’t mean, of course, that I haven’t seen weird things. As we all know there are plenty of weird things to see on the...
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Weird Things Seen on the Street, #48
Some back story to preface this next weird thing photo. For the six years I lived in my apartment in Sacramento, there had been a water bottle sitting in the fire extinguisher box across from my living...
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Weird Things Seen on the Street, #49
I saw this weird thing just off an alley in midtown Sacramento back in August. It felt very Andy Warhol-esque. Seen something weird on the street lately? Send me your photo, along with where you saw...
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